Hello readers.. bloggers and friends!
:) I hope all is well with each of you.

My presense online is currently at an

all-time low! I know you can relate as

we all have other activities and duties

which keep us away from the pc.

 

Just a small update. Whitney is 11 today!

Yay.

 

All my best to you!

 

x

I'm never here.

sad.

 

lol

NOW it's no longer myspace that has my attention.. it's facebook

oh geez ya.

 

lol

 

peace!

Hey there. I've decided to come here once a week and update this site as well. Right now I am at my new house watch CSI MIAMI. I just got an email from my gf and she said she does not have enough time to get her work done in the morning. I'm assuming it may BE because we spend so much time tog... but, you know what they say about assuming. LOL >> never good.

 

I have to go to walmart tomorrow. I"m getting a wall mount for the girls' new flatscreen. I have to find a way to mount it on the wall. I'm very thankful for my power screwdriver right now.

 

I am going to finish this episode and head out to get something from the grocery store. My cupoards are BARE BARE, BARE! lol

 

Wish me luck!

 

Nan

I'm here.. occasionally. I will tell you I made my "myspace" site public now.. go have a look.

just type in www.myspace.com/dykelesbian.

 

there' s love in fargo.

 

oh, and i'm in still in love!

 

.xx.

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come on over to myspace.. I'll UNLOCK the secrets for ya'll to see.

 

2 be Honest.. it's this new LIVE spaces.. i can't get it.. *shrugs*

makes blogging hard :-(

 

love to you.

 

 

xx

 

We have been talking for months. We'll meet Saturday night. I'm nervous as heck.

Wish me luck.

nanc.

blog here much anymore.. but I always leave pretty pictures.

 

you can find my on myspace.

 

there.. I am dykelesbian.

 

peace.

 

 

 

find your chi.

 

please.

 

xx

 

sweet, tasty buzz ++
Current mood: It is Quiet.

I am here alone in a quiet house. It is dark.

Very, very dark. 

Ok, so I'm not *exactly* alone. LOL.

The short story?                           

 I'll try. We loss power about 3 hours ago now. Prepare                                                                                                                                                              for the typo's cuz' it's really dark in here.

Candles? A few. Scented even.

Egads, batman! My sweet batterys

power is only at a remaining 10percent.

The girls are fast asleep.

They were hot and bored by the

time they passed out.

We passed the time writing stories 

and watching some euro telly

I'd recorded on the laptop

(which is why my battery is low-

we used it all night)  and caught an

American episode of the Simpsons via

battery as well. Meh! Anything is better

 than nothing when youre waiting for power.

((( Im at 8 percent power now! )))

Blimey! If I could only power up the

desktop now.. heh-heh. Tonight -

My Whitney said - sort of Eureka!

style ""I know, Mom.. Lets just turn on

 the TV. - then we'll be able to see!""  lol..

 Kids.. OF course I explained to her that

the telly was something else we plug in.

Speaking of not living well without power,

I'm fully prepared to dig into my novels

by candlelight. It is how I will spend my

evening tonight but, I am using up every

last SECOND of this laptops pwer. LOL..

Every second. I've already adjusted the

properties so that I can work until the

end and not hibernate as per always.

I can't wait to read by candlelight though

I will be glad to see the power come again.

*sigh* I won't think of sleeping of course..

Lol. Nooooooooo.. Couldnt do that..

Oy! It's been a long time w/o - doesn't look

good for power now.. perhaps in the morning?

 Maybe it was a squirrell? I am at 7

percent power now and fading fast I

 imagine. 13 minutes it says.. (laughs)  

It is funny. I think I like this sense of urgency.

 

It helps me realize how much I write like most people breathe..

 

Why I am so happy most days I feel spoiled rotten by it..

how much reading blogs light my fire...

 my desires.. words not only heal

and inspire they engulf me in pleasure...

It is.

Ok, so.. I found a trivia game

that I had nestled in my goodie box -

GOODIE BOX: A virtual folder

I keep of games, goofiness

(euro programmes) and guilty pleasures

(hip hop and old country) for when I'm

stuck at the airport or without power like now. 

I also have a few books but I'm going to be

reading plenty in a minute..

Anyway, yes.. this game?? It IS called Trivia

Madness and it was most addicting. If only

Whit and I hadn't wrote that story earlier

I"d have the power to play more!  Oh, but it

was a cute story. I'll post it as well. That will

make up for this lameass post.

4 perecnt power now and I'm

misspelling and feeling like I am writing

a death letter. LoL.. Not funny I know..

But ironic maybe? I dunno.. I'm delirious..

And so I write.. Heh-heh. and make

little sense.. and enjoy that thought..

(laughs)

Books on deck at 2 yes 2 percent power..

POWER OF NOW - classic by mr .

eckart tolle.

And MASTERY OF LOVE-

don migel ruiz..

They are bedside and handy..

No searching thru a dusty bookshelf alone

in the dark with only the light of a cellphone

 to guide me.

WHAT?

I am not walking in the dark carrying

a candle its too dangerous..lol - ok.

One percent remaining and I'm saving

and signing off.. I can't take the pressure.

g'ahead.. call me a wussy!

God Speed dear mr. power.

Well miss your sweet, tasty buzz..

Time to go read

like Laura Engles.. Wilder.. I guess.

Peace.

Xx

 

I hope *you* are enjoying a hot, fresh

cup of your favourite

wake-up juice...

Whatever your flavour.

*sigh*

This is a "good morning" blog.

 

I know the situation going

 on the Mideast right now

has essentially been going on for ..

Well, forever essentially -

but, these new-ish developments

have me feeling jumpy.

I think the recent declaration

of the Osama-lama- [Al Qaeda]

gang; declaring their alliance with Saddam - the former Iraq; and

now the recent discovery of 

Osama's ties to the PLO and

Al Qaeda's recent proclimation

of an alliance with Hezbollah??

It truly makes one realize that this

force [however unrecognizable]

is not going away anytime soon.

They really dont care *who* we

have as president now - later;

whenever - they just know they

hate the United States. It doesnt matter

what we do, where we go,

or even how we protect ourselves.

They were born and raised to hate.

It sounds completely horrific..

It is just that.

We'll never quench their

fervent desire to truly spit

on the face of our rally

cry for peace, freedom

and pride in something

that matters to most of us.

This next election will

galvanize some kind

of reaction, sure..

And, no matter what the

outcome, or which way things

will swing. America will still be

a democracy. We'll still be despised

by much of the world that

surrounds us.

Perhaps our children's children

will see a time when the ideas in the West become more and more

self-sacrificing and less and less

indulgent - focus: conservation, preservation, dedication.

Sorry, I went off there. Rant Over.

New rant coming.

I can feel it.

*lopsided grin*

I would think the current

administration has thought

of this - but, do you 'spose

we have a few of ours inside?

Do you really think so?

I hope so. Apparently,

Al Qaeda has been

recruiting young and

old alike online

since 1997. It'd be

nice to know *someone*

 is telling who they should

 the goings on of the hideously unorganized

and dreadfully deadly

insurgents.

I wonder what is required

of a young Jedi in their

 motley faction?

Yikes! I cant even imagine.

I dont want to right now.

See?

 This is what happens

when you discover

some clean neat, and

late-late night to dawn

coverage on CBS

of all networks.

Well, it doesnt hurt

this particular network

that both anchors are two very professional,

*blush*

and especially beautiful

women. The show is

called Up-to-the-minute

by the way and I don't

recommend it if you're sleepless.

The news is not a good thing

generally speaking.

I know, I know, it sounds

crazy. I can't even believe

the words that are now

spilling out of my virtual

mouth into the tiny little

keyboard beneath my fingertips.

But this will have to wait for

another blog. My eyelids are

becoming weighty.

Ok, I despise bagels..

but maybe *you* want one?

I hope your day is clean, productive and magnificent!

Saturday, July 29, 2006

bloody bowflex Current mood: bitchy Damnit. Its after 4am and here I am watching stupid ass MTV ( ie; my millionth bowflex commercial ) -  worse its a re-run of room raiders of all things. Im really, really sick in the  head for watching.. Well, letting it roll on in the background as I try to catch up on my favourite blogs. There is a can of raid in one of my hands  (even whilst typing sometimes) and a half - eaten roll of sprees are next to the laptop. Another whack at a book on grieving and some eclipse mints. I always have mints bedside. ' I * really * am pretty freaky.. Not to mention animated. * goofy smile* So yeah.. This fly. Ive given him the  occasional fly by spray -- closing my own eyes and mouth and hoping like hell I dont  breathe in too much raid. Dont get me wrong,  Im generally free-loving - but, this fly was the size of a dime.. He had to go. It has been thundering and  raining and lightening all night.. lol.. I"m listening to the thunder  as I write.. rumble - rumble.. all night off and on.. it's like RAIN ALREADY.. Anyway, back to the fly - now- he  is trapped somewhere hopelessly buzzing into what sounds like a plastic bag. The trouble is, I have no idea where its at. My space is meticulously neat at present (kids are with daddy) so, its not like I cant see straight.. But I can hear the little bastard  buzzing.. Dying essentially.. Making me feel 10 different kinds of bad irritated all at once.. Giving me a headache  the size of mt. rushmore. Did you know I once was blonde? Yep.  Too blonde if you ask me. What the heck was I thinking? . ..wish I knew. *sigh* I'm thinking about everything all at once.... Dayam. Talk about ADHD on ADD. Tonight, I happen to notice that I had 809 friends. As Ive done before I just hacked, cut up and bingo. - about half as many friends much easier to manage . *giggle* hope I didnt offend any 1. Since my profile  is now set to private, I imagine Ill find out if I did. LoL. That is all. xx

 

 

there is a band called 'age of rockets' - i like them a lot.

 

xoxoxo

 

Thursday, July 27, 2006

not that long ago. Current mood: busy Im sorry Ive been a bit of a.. well, prosaic blogger lately. I dont know why but I do feel like I am on auto-pilot sometimes. Whats that all about? LoL. The crew poses with the engine of Pictous first train, in 1887. In the background are the tower of the Customs House and the peak of the first railway station. (Pic= Historical Photograph Society, from the collection of Don MacIsaac)         First passenger train in Lynch, Oct. 20, 1920. Shinkansen 2006   6:46 AM

life travels at the speed of light.. or so I've learned.

 

if you want to reach me - you can at this addy.

You DO NOT have 2 join to look and read my entries.

 

I will continue to post here as well

 

xoxxo

 

I'm going 2 texas on AUG 13

shifts Current mood: artistic This is a post about a major shift in my thinking that occurred just a few years ago. This shift caused a dramatic improvement in my enjoyment of life. Now, I don't want to sound like a commercial but - if - I *was* selling something it would be a little self-love cream. --smirk-- If you'd like to experience  more joy in your life right now instead of merely hoping things will get better in your future, or  living a life of quiet desperation, you may dig these quotes. Sure, somedays - I still feel like  shit, but thats when I drag t hese bad boys out. Words, after all, *can* be magical. Nanners Top 50 "We are masters because we have the power to create and to rule our own lives" "You are the way you are because that is what you believe about yourself" "Humans pretend to be something very important, but at the same time we believe we are nothing" "Life brings you exactly what you need" "Happiness never comes from outside of us" "Your whole life is nothing but a dream. You live in a fantasy where everything you know about yourself is only true for you. Your truth is not the truth for anyone else." "Love has no resistance. whatever we do is because we want to do it" "Selfishness comes from poverty in the heart, from the belief that love is not abundant" "Your reactions are the key to having a wonderful life" "You are responsible for the consequences of whatever you do, think, say, and feel." "Life doesn't need to be justified or judged" "Life is not the body; it is not the mind; it is not the sould. It is a force" "You are what you believe you are" "Forgiveness is an act of self-love" "You cannot be happy if you don't love yourself" "You are alive because of the power of God, which is the power of Life" "Everything is made of light" "The real us is pure love, pure light" "Attention is the ability we have to discriminate and to focus only on that which we want to perceive." "The only way to store information is by agreement" "The belief system is like a Book of Law that rules our mind" "Our biggest fear is taking the risk to be alive" "Humans punish themselves endlessly for not being what they believe they should be." "We have the need to be accepted and to be loved by others, but we cannot accept and love ourselves." "Your word is the power that you have to create" "A sin is anything you do which goes against yourself" "You go against yourself when you judge or blame yourself for anything" "Your opinon is nothing but your point of view" "Personal importance, or taking things personally, is the maximum expression of selfishness because we make the assumption that everthing is about me." "Nothing other people do is because of you.It is because of themselves" "You can choose to follow your heart always" "The problem with making assumptions is that we believe they are the truth" "We only se what we want to see and hear what we want to hear" "We make the assumption that everyone sees life the way we do" "Real love is accepting other people the way they are without trying to change them" "Doing your best is taking the action because you love it, not because you're expecting a reward" "If we like what we do, if we always do our best, then we are really enjoying life. We are having fun, we don't get bored, we don't have frustrations." "When you do your best you learn to accept yourself" "Your own body is a manifestation of God, and if you honor your body everything will change for you" "Your life is the manifestation of your dream; it is an art. You can change your life anytime if you aren't enjoying the dream." "Our brain is the factory of the emotions" "We are addicted to being the way we are" "Forgiveness is the only way to heal" "The truth is like a scalpel. The truth is painful" "The dream you are living is your creation. It is your perception of reality that you can change at any time" "Only love has the ability to put you in that state of bliss" - those 2 lovlies are my daughters! "The only reason you suffer is because you choose to suffer" The only reason you are happy is because you choose to be happy. Happiness is a choice, and so ..... "You are here to enable the divine purpose of the universe to unfold. That is how important you are!" "To meet everything and everyone through stillness instead of mental noise is the greatest gift you can offer to the universe." .....So break the old pattern of present-moment denial and PRONUNCIATION:   -ls-r, -z-r present-moment resistance. Make it your practice to withdraw attention from past and future whenever they are not needed. Step out of the time dimension as much as possible in everyday life. If you find it hard to  enter the Now directly, start by observing the ' habitual tendency of your mind to want to escape from the Now.  You will observe that the future is usually imagined as either better or worse than the present.  If the imagined future is better, it gives you  hope or pleasurable anticipation. If it is worse,  it creates anxiety. Both are illusory.       Currently watching: NewsRadio - The Complete Third Season Release date: By 28 February, 2006 4:52 AM - 0 Comments - 0 Kudos - Add Comment - Edit - Remove

existential cafe Current mood: creative Category: Life Do you exist, or are you mearly floating in the waves of life? Sorry! an unexpected error has occurred. This error has been forwarded to MySpace's technical group This Cafe of Lost Souls is open *all* night. We're located just at the end of the Boulevard of Broken Dreams. The ancient faded signs on the walls and the ripped  vinyl in the booths suggest that even in peak daylight hours, there is little comfort or cheer to be found inside. At night, a  cold bluish light casts irregular shadows on the scarred Formica  table tops and gives one the feeling of having wandered into a dismal limbo. The waitress is sitting at one of the tables near the cash register,  her head propped on one arm, eyes focused on something that only she can see. One can see that ten years ago she would have had the kind of baby face that can get a woman almost anything she wants from men. But now the face is puffy and shows the meanness of a woman who life has cheated over and over again. In the middle of the cafe, a man and woman are staring past each other across a table. The half-finished plates  of food in front of them have been cold for a long time.  One senses that some time in the past, perhaps as recently  as an hour or so ago, there was a connection between these two.  Now, each seems disconnected not only from the other, but from the rest of the world as well. Somebody put an incredible amount of money in the juke box a long time ago, and it's still playing Billie Holiday records.  It must be about four o'clock in the morning --- that time of night when  life is on stand-by and doesn't move, doesn't think, doesn't see, but only endures. ( taken *in-part* from http://www2.hawaii.edu/~lady/fict/spider.html ) I fell asleep too early again and now I'm wide awake and it's too late (early?) arrrgh.. I miss my gf. seriously!! I bought Whitter and Olive little radios w/headphones (inspired by ipods.. you could say they are poor man's ipod) they are tiny and trendy looking and they are diggin' on listening to the radio all the time..  heh-heh.       Currently watching: NewsRadio - The Complete Fourth Season Release date: By 20 June, 2006